Trick or Treat

Dear Carter, Tuesday was Halloween, soooooo….happy Halloween! I had a whirlwind of a morning at work; I was busy running around and thinking hard about work things and enjoying spending time with my friends from work while we celebrated someone’s birthday…the whole time wearing a chicken costume  because I love to celebrate, well, anything. And… Continue reading Trick or Treat

Burning Woman

Dear Carter, I hate today. Today is the hardest of days for some reason only you and God probably know. I sure can’t figure it out. There’s no significance, no special meaning. It’s just a day. But I woke up pissed off, back in the dark forest, and haven’t been able to find the light… Continue reading Burning Woman

112

*This post originally penned 9/14/17* Dear Carter, Today, it’s been 112 days since you left. 112 days since I held you. 112 days since I saw your face. 112 days since I kissed you. Today, you’ve been gone longer than you were here. Today is a hard day. Today, I miss you just as much… Continue reading 112

6 months

Dear Carter, Happy 6 month birthday! All of my thoughts today are full of you. I woke up so angry that you had to leave. And as the day has passed, I’ve felt lots of other emotions swirling around. Of course, sadness, because I miss you so much. Fear. Guilt. Weariness. I’ve cried once. So far. But… Continue reading 6 months